13 days.

Till I’m 33 years old. It will be the second year I don’t hear from my mother, and I’m already dreading it. I know that sounds horribly dramatic, but after my grandmother died a few years ago, my mom has been the person that calls, never fail.

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Until last year.

My phone sat eerily silent all day. 10 am…noon. 3 pm…. then 6. Dinner came and went. The lump in my throat grew to the point I thought I’d just finally stop swallowing successfully. My boyfriend was his usual disaster self on holidays, and blew the entire thing. I sat all day just thinking I’d either lost my mind or was finally standing up for what I believed in (myself) and finally dealing with the consequences of having faith in my beliefs. I admit I spent the day unbearably depressed and wishing I could be living anyone elses life but mine.

Then all of a sudden… the phone rang.

It was my little brother… calling to wish me a happy birthday.

It took a few minutes for me to be able to speak, and he apologized over and over again because it was late. I laughed and told him I was ashamed he was so much better at remembering birthdays than all us sisters. Our Grandma Elaine always called… and since she passed away, my brother has called me :) We really are so lucky to have him :)

I simply must knit for my niece.

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Hopefully I’ll meet her in July. At any rate… I must knit myself silly over this simply scrumptious niece of mine. 9 lbs 3 oz… and pure sweetness. She looks so much like my sister that I get nostalgic every time I see one of the 5 pictures of her on the front of the fridge.

I love my nephews absolutely the same, but the knitting patterns are far more plentiful for little girl babies. I really plan on moving closer as soon as my kids are older. I want to be present in their lives. It means something to me to be more than some crazy Aunt in Idaho. I love them so much, and I am so thankful for my sister making a real Aunt out of me. Ah. :)

So my garden is overrun with weeds. My laundry room is well… unmentionable.

However… Gretta will be small for just days,  and there are only moments that I can knit something so perfect and small that’s worthy of such a little angel.

I just hope they arrive in time!

I’m an AUNT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh Dear God, in Heaven.

I know I prayed. I know I had a preference. Sorry. My sister happens to be my favorite person, and she was pregnant for the third time. OH HAPPY DAY! IT’S A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!

Gretta is her 5th child. My sister has been blessed with a son and daughter she did not have to physically grow :)   Bonus! She’s been such an example to me, as she’s loved them totally and completely as her own. Their mother has passed away and my sister has been simply fantastic with them from the start.

At any rate, Sarah has done an exemplary job… and has  been blessed with my sweet nephew Payton first, then Noah our little Christmas Angel and now with her very own little girl! Meet Miss Gretta. The object of my knitting obsession!

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I’ve made the most insanely cute things I can hardly wait to get them in the mail. I’ve had 4 hours of sleep and I am SO DARN HAPPY I could cry. I’m an Auntie again, and I have a niece.

Sigh.

Life is good :)

Sarah Elaine… I love you.