Picketing Palin Peacefully.

I’m a good old fashioned small town girl. I grew up in Sandpoint, and love it or hate it- it’s home.  My kids were born here- and are growing up swimming in the same lake I did as a child. Eurasian Milfoil poison or not. It’s still a small town- with few traffic lights and old fashioned conservative roots. It’s Sandpoint, Idaho… chosen home of Mark Fuhrman… of O.J. Simpson infamy… oh and nearby to the white supremacist supernova… That’s just great. Puke.

So I took my passionately liberal children out to picket. Hate me if you want… as you can see I couldn’t give a shit less how you feel about it.
I believe (more than anything else) in my right to assemble and protest. Peacefully. I refused to engage with the lunatic conservatives-  and Oh-Me-Oh-My they were there in full effect. You only need to check my local newpaper’s website to see how many people suggest I have my children taken away by CPS because I support their right to disagree. Amazing that they can’t see the connection between their freedom of speech and ours. Sad really.

Something good came out of this evening, actually. My ex-boyfriend decided to come with us… and promptly threw me under the bus and let the lunatic asshole guys prey on me until the fire chief came over and made them leave. If there were ever a clear sign… it was my daughter and HIS son shrinking behind me while some strange man yelled in my face… Mr. needs-a-new-girlfriend was busy shooting the shit with one of their friends.

I had a huge amount of satisfaction looking at him, thinking… you’re going to really suffer this mistake at some point, I guarantee you. Fucking jerk.

Little Mr. Bush

Tobin Bush- my favorite little 4 year old boy.

Have you seen David Wiesner? From Flotsam , Three Little Pigs , Sector 7Night of the GargoylesJune 29 1999 to Hurricane,  he really is the most amazing author/illustrator. All of the books have the most amazing illustrations, with very few words. Truly a joy as a parent- they allow you to explore your own children’s ideas and impressions of the beautiful illustrations.

I recently took a trip home to Utah- to Rachael’s house… and Tobin, Sammy & Richard- the-best husband-of-all… also.

It was fabulously selfishly family- wholesome. I had the privilege of remembering my old life. My life+ babies. I realized I think I may be past it… I may have actually wasted so much time with the wrong guy that I burned my chance at happily ever after+ one more love-child-fantasy-baby-with-two-committed-parents… however.

I also burned my chance at settling.

Surely that counts for something.

Internet dating…

What was I thinking?

Ok so I admit… I need attention. I’m dying for some adult conversation- and I don’t mean the perv-o variety… just something beyond kids and the everyday grind…Beyond that- the best way to get over someone is to realize you are wasting your time putting up with shit you don’t deserve…for example:  meeting someone more viable,  happy or nicer- ETC than your ex.

So I took my dear friend’s advice and enlisted the help of Yahoo personals & Match.com. Horrid miserable idea.

Apparently every man I could possibly be interested in isn’t over 5’5″… which makes me sad. I love my 4″ heels… and the last thing I need in my life is a man with a Napoleon complex…

Alternately… I”m very popular with the over 50 crowd. Incidentally my dad was a loser- and I don’t want a man that reminds me of him. <shiver>

Ugh.

I hope it’s not too late to adopt a few dozen cats.

My (new) favorite song!

sigh…love the lyrics – but then what disenchanted newly single girl wouldn’t? Now I just need Santa to bring me a nice man that wants to sing it to me :)