I realized this morning that my blog has been viewed over 16,000 times. I have a few different reactions to that…
Panicked… since you’ve read along with me accepting my PHD, learning that I should avoid my favorite beverage, actually I’ve learned the Goose lesson a few times in the last few year. Here… and yet again. I told you, I never learn the easy way. Isn’t the hard way more fun anyway?
Relieved… because you’ve been there for me through the worst relationship of my life. Trying to love him… trying to leave him… learning how to stand up for myself… and finally, outing him as the shitbag he really is. Most of all I’m relieved it’s over.
Humble…You’ve had unlimited patience for my heathen ass lately… my learning to love being single… and a little slutty. You haven’t even thrown rocks at me when I’ve realized how blind I’ve been. Even when I whine about it.
Sexy…I don’t get a lot of shit for it (and know some of you would LOVE to chew my ass out a little about him…I have to stop and thank those of you who fall in that category, for not giving me too hard a time about my Shark… consider the sweet satisfaction in rubbing my ex’s nose in my happiness… the leg-shaking earth rocking fun I have with him…and the delicious sexpot he’s turned me into. Scorching hot pornographic dreams certainly don’t hurt.
I’m learning, slowly… but I’m trying.
Thanks for hanging in there with me.