Day 29 – Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Uck. This 30 Days of truth thing is thankfully almost over… and admittedly I’ve put off the last few because they struck a little too close to home.
If I could change one thing about myself it would be my appetite for mean men. Definitely. Wouldn’t we all?
Put two identical men in front of me and I’ll pick the asshole every time. Blindfolded even. Give me a nice guy that returns phone calls, sends flowers and is honest and faithful… and I’ll go straight out of my mind.
A jerk is so much more…. hmmm… dangerous? Reckless? Enticing. If he makes me wonder where he is, lies to me, cheats on me, etc… I can’t do enough to please him. I should have a doormat tattooed on my forehead. Seriously.
It’s totally and completely ridiculous, and as a grown woman? A habit I sincerely need to break.
It’s tragic and pathetic to see a confident woman flail miserably with a douche bag for a boyfriend or husband. Truly tragic. We all have a gorgeous friend who wastes her brilliance on a bad man, and I will be the first person to tell her to cut her losses, remind her how wonderful she is and will her to love herself as much as everyone worthy of her love & devotion does.
I just don’t take my own advice. Tragic and mortifying, all rolled into one lovely little disaster.
Browsing blogs last night I found the best advice I’ve seen in AGES.
No more chasing, no more assholes… and no more ignoring my own advice. How’s that for a worthy New Years Resolution?
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