30 Days of Truth, Day 4

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Day 4 — Something you need to forgive someone else for.

Uck. Some of these are awfully hard to answer honestly, and what the hell is the point if you aren’t telling the truth?

I need to forgive my favorite man for not falling madly in love with me like he was supposed to.

I went into this casual sexual situation thinking I was immune from the risk of getting caught up with him and thought I knew all the cool things there were to know. I figured it was a safe gamble to play with him. I was SO wrong.

The more you get to know someone, the more you realize how little you knew in the beginning. I fell in love with his beautiful character and the way he loves his family because he’s such a rare example of what it means to be a man. Unwrapping him was an enormous mistake because now it’s all I want to do.

Is there a 12 step program for amazing dick? Asking for a friend… 🙂

I changed the rules. I asked to date him instead of just play with him. I made it worse by professing my love a few days after surgery in January and again last week. I even threw a few jealous temper tantrums- something I absolutely DON’T do. I’m positive of one thing. I cannot drink around him or feelings come flying out of the poor hiding places I’ve shoved them into.

I need to forgive him for not loving me back.

Even if it fucking sucks.

But.

I don’t want anything half-assed or half-hearted. The man in my life has to be fire or he’ll get burned hanging out with me. I learned a dozen new things I like from Incredicock and I’m so grateful for every last one. This incredible guy has taught me how to say some of the most mortifying, terrifying things and part of me will always hope he’ll change his mind.

Until then, I forgive him for not being as smart as he is incredible.

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