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30 Days of Truth, Day 11

Day 11 — Something people seem to always compliment you on.

I smile a lot, and was blessed with my Grandma’s pretty green eyes, two things I’m frequently complimented for, but one of the most bizarre things that I’ve received a million compliments on is:

My ability to cry.

Weird, right?

I’m not exactly thrilled about that, and it goes without saying that I don’t enjoy being sad. I’ve learned that hidden feelings only turn into bad choices and hangovers, so you may as well cry about it and move on, instead.

I’m sweetly sensitive in that I share everyone’s emotions. I cry with people leaving loved ones at the airport… because I hate doing that. I cry when someone does something thoughtful for me because I’m truly grateful for the people in my life who love me. I’m a bit of a crybaby. I just never knew it would be considered a blessing to be an extreme empath.

I also get complimented regularly for not being jaded or for not having given up on love, regardless of the reasons to support my feeling otherwise. I’m a little awkward about that one. It’s sort of like telling someone:

“Good for you, you still want to climb back into the same place you got attacked by that shark. I would never do that, but it’s cool to see someone that will!”

I’ve seen love in my life so I know it exists. I also know a million lazy couples who don’t care about offering each other what’s wanted or needed. I want more than that. If more than that doesn’t exist then I’m far happier alone than I am with the wrong person, or someone who doesn’t want me. Something happens when you’re more used to being disappointed than not.

You learn to make yourself happy, in the best ways. Or new ways. Or any damn way at all that works. Kisses aren’t contracts and love has a way of going down in mid flight, so let yourself feel it all while you get to.

Be sad.

Be happy.

Cry, laugh and scream with all the passion you deserve to feel, because life is too short to care about what other people think. Take those compliments and use them to fuel the fire of making your dreams come to life. You only take away the feelings you’re left with, so wrap both of your arms around every choice you make and feel it all.

Go ahead and cry about it. It hurts sometimes but it also clears your soul and comforts your heart. People even think it’s some sort of superpower these days, so put your cape on and fly off into that emotionally healthy future of yours.

Emotions are the breadcrumbs that lead us to happiness. Even the waterlogged, swollen-faced, nightmare days. Tears can wash the worst mistakes away.

Sometimes crying does in fact, makes it clean.

cry

 

Categories: 30 Days of Truth, Love, Torment

1 reply

  1. Sister, I just read your post. I understand how you might see crying as a way to release emotions, however, my wish is for you to be happy, and smiling. The only tears that I want to see fall from your face are tears of joy. Dear sister, life is indeed a bit of a roller-coaster, and so much happens so quick. However, there is a lining in the sky, that lining is God. I do not look to myself, or to my abilities, I look to God. It is God who will put the right people in my life, it is God who will present me with the right opportunities, and I know that I will bask in God’s love. Some of the things you go through, why don’t you give it to God in prayer. Tell the Father how you feel, and ask for his help. God is a present help in times of need, and like every parent, he want us his children to be happy. I am sure that he would be glad to hear from you, and happy to help according to his will. Building a relationship with the Lord will also be beneficial, because it would allow the Lord to constantly be in your life, and to pour out an influx of blessings. It would also make you more Godly, and change many things about you. If you do not yet have a relationship with the Lord, I would strongly suggest that you begin one. Cry no more, and smile often, God loves you very dearly. May God’s blessings be with you sister. ❤ ❤

    If you want to know about God in more detail, you can find further information here https://christcenteredruminations.wordpress.com/2018/10/23/a-few-things-that-i-have-learned-about-god/ And Here https://christcenteredruminations.wordpress.com/2018/08/29/how-to-build-a-relationship-with-god/

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