Day 28 — What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
I would have an abortion. Absolutely no question in my mind. I would walk if nobody would drive me. I am 100% done growing humans to keep or give away.
No. More. Babies. In. This. Body.
(Unless any of my offspring can’t grow their own…)
I’m all for babies and breastfeeding. I loved my home birth so much and wish I’d had more at home… but I didn’t. Something about having a baby and raising her alone, has a way of putting those last nails in your fertility coffin.
I got a fabulous IUD after my sweet baby and I am 100% bulletproof. #Thankfuckinggawd.
Day 27 — What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Things are good. Good enough that I worry about acknowledging how good they really are.
My professional life has never been better and there’s light at the end of the tunnel for the first time in years. I have a job that compliments my life as a single parent, first. It’s also tailored to the weird skills I’ve accumulated along the years of trying to find anything that would keep me busy and the power on. Being employed for my brain and not my body is a new kind of satisfaction.
My personal life is a new version of peace, as well. I have so little time for anything outside of working full time and running a house, but I’ve made a point to stop and play this year and it shows.
My body is thinner than it has been in years and I’ve finally made my health a priority. I’ve equated self care with being selfish for far too long and it’s been really nice appreciating the view in the mirror again.
Pretty much everything is going well for me right now, but if I had to narrow it down to one thing… I’d say my attitude has been the most helpful.
I don’t blame anyone else for my own suffering anymore. I have learned to take full responsibility and look for a solution instead of a scapegoat. I’m trying to be more remedy than reason, if that makes any sense?
I’m nicer… and I like that a lot.