Another Beautiful Day In Chaos

sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't…



I worked a miracle on Monday and saved myself for the gazillionth time. I bought a bottle of champagne on my way home and cried tears of relief instead of fear. I cannot tell you how good that feels. Scary shit was coming at me from every angle and instead of hiding from it (as is my way) I listened to my Fancy friend, put my head down and did […]

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My Hero, Jess.

Early one morning before I was out of bed, my phone started ringing. I ignored it the first time, then flipped it over and saw it was my beloved friend Jess, who had moved to California. I launched out of bed and ran for the kitchen so I didn’t wake up the whole house when I shouted an exuberant HIIIIII!!!!! As soon as I heard her voice, I knew something […]

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That chicken tho….

I didn’t sleep at all and I felt like it. To add insult to injury, a migraine crept its way up the back of my neck around noon and claimed me. Of all the worst timing, this one takes the cake because I had a lunch date with the king of the kitchen. Not one to accept defeat without a fight, I slipped into my shoes and went anyway. Driving […]

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I watched him walk in and realized with a giggle under my breath that he was MAD. REALLY mad. He was being friendly and polite to the server as she walked him to the table, but I could tell that he was barely keeping his cool and wanted to strangle me. Consequently, I’m all sorts of turned on and grinning at his silent anger. Dear LORD… I don’t know what […]

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It’s been a long fucking week. I’ve been painting a happy face on and going through the motions all day, only to come home and freeze, entirely. The dishes have piled up, the washing machine stands silent and my bathroom sink reminds me of the gas station. My silent phone haunts me because I feel such a huge absence of Anthony. Even his daily infernal text message: A- Good morning […]

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