Another Beautiful Day In Chaos

sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't…

Food

Peace

I used to really care what other people’s opinions were. I don’t any more. My mother says the same thing to me, every time I need to check back in with myself. I’m proud of myself after surviving the last year. I’ve learned to love the less spectacular things about myself and the messes I’ve made within the confines of my life. I fell head over heels in love with […]

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Hungry

I lost my appetite a year ago. Something about being in love with someone destined to keep on hurting me also stole my love for cooking and eating. Food is love to me and the absence of it in my life left me disinterested in eating more than was necessary to survive. I didn’t want a steak if the guy I wanted wouldn’t cook one for me. I know that […]

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Gratitude

In the worst month of my adult life, I’ve had to take stock of what’s important and face reality about what’s not. I’ve had to stop and count my blessings at a time when they all felt like sand slipping through my fingers. I’ve never been more sad or had more reason to be hopeful about the future. I’ve also never had more stress or reason to worry, in my […]

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Coping.

I’m not the best at taking advice. I don’t know if it’s because I’m so stubborn or what? Either way, I take the path less followed and learn the hard way more often than not. I’ll do it myself or die trying. Consequently, I’ve done some very stupid shit. I rewired the garage, for instance. Complete with a whole new breaker box, new wire and outlets… ugh. That was a […]

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Fermented obsession

The thing about having a garden and being moderately OCD is that I grow things I don’t eat, purely for color and shape. I end up with a lot of shallots, cabbage, beets, and so on… Some of it takes up a huge amount of space after you have harvested the garden for frost. 8 cabbages, for instance. I was trying to juggle other groceries in amongst the giant purple […]

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