Another Beautiful Day In Chaos

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The Puppy

I’ve been looking for a puppy for a few years now. My beloved Peapod died 4 years ago and I lost my mind a little. I quit my job, started a new career… and ruled out ever having a dog again. My heart has never been so decimated as the day I wrapped my beloved best friend in my baby blanket and buried her in my garden. Her tags are […]

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The high cost of help

Admittedly, I like to do everything myself. It’s not that I’m a control freak, I just know that people rarely do things without expectations and I don’t like being beholden to anyone. But…everyone has their breaking point and we’ve gotten two feet of snow this weekend. My right elbow is angry and screams loudly with every heavy shovel full. To say I’m exhausted is an epic understatement, and the snow […]

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Peace

I used to really care what other people’s opinions were. I don’t any more. My mother says the same thing to me, every time I need to check back in with myself. I’m proud of myself after surviving the last year. I’ve learned to love the less spectacular things about myself and the messes I’ve made within the confines of my life. I fell head over heels in love with […]

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Perspective

Other than the dark fog of that first month of raising a newborn alone, I don’t know a day I’ve been more exhausted. My eyeballs ache, along with every single inch of the rest of my body. I hardly slept and it shows. I had to schlep everything back home from my mom’s house today and it was a herculean task. I’m a whole lot of destroyed, today. Unfortunately, that […]

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Looking back…

This New Year’s Eve was one for the baby books, more than little black books. I spent it with a friend, our kids and a few old fireworks. We convinced them it was midnight around 10:30 pm and went to bed, early. I’m gloomy… as I tend to be anyway when I’m feeling disappointed and nostalgic. I’m content in a new way after washing my hands of the menfolk, and […]

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