Regrettably Hopeful

I try really hard to like myself these days. I've spent enough time in the past hating who I was or what I looked like, and what my body had become after an early entry into motherhood with poor elasticity. The world is a dark, hard place. You should always be a gentle place for…

Lifeline

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=boPuA0CbjiY I've been drowning in these miserable cravings for a man I can't have. A man I've had, sort of. A man who loves to dangle himself in front of me, still. When he brought this idea to me, I was trying to set him up with a friend of mine because I've loved him…

The Strappy Panties.

I love anything that laces up and have far too many corsets for one woman. Call it a fetish if you like, I'm a sucker for anything of the sort. They arrived in the mail and I put them on, excitedly. They aren't uncomfortable and do me all sorts of favors, but that strappy business…

Martini Honest.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P00HMxdsVZI I worked a ridiculous week and haven't eaten in 3 days. I lose my appetite when I'm frustrated and stressed out. Food feels foreign in my mouth and I'm tied into a lovely, sexually frustrated, square knot. Running isn't helping and the tendonitis in my elbow is derailing my workouts, so I have too…

Not another first date.

I'd seriously considered hand picking the weirdos again. That was moderately entertaining and made for some hilarious reading to go back to when I'm feeling lonely. I kept trying to force myself to shift gears into dating or making some semblance of an effort to stop the eternal comparison between He-whom-I-want-so-badly and Mr. whoever is…