Tiger

I'm smug and satisfied today. I don't appreciate being toyed with and this situation has left me sleepless, hung over and fucking pathetic. I've been swimming in self pity and sadness and have earned a few nicknames of my own... nevermind the dozen pounds I've tacked on lately trying to swallow the lump in my…

Quiet

I get very quiet when I'm unhappy or working through details I don't love. I suppose it could be some form of pouting, though I'm not mad or upset. When I'm resigned and trying to pull myself together to avoid the temper tantrum I'd love to indulge in, I just need to be left alone…

So pretty it hurts.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9SRxBTtspYM I've never had such a visceral reaction to someone before and I'm frustrated at my inability to conceal it from him. I heard his voice today before I saw him walk in and knew I should look up at him and face the view head on before he was tableside and watching my reaction…

Forget It.

It's been a horribly difficult year trying to shake this beautiful man out of my tangled hair.  The eternal optimist in me has been wishing on clovers and stars, always wrapping him in hope instead of reality. Ripping the healing wound open with every smile that creeps across his beautiful face, I've realized what a…

Skin Deep.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-tBXCggGShM I spent the day breathing through my nerves and trying to swallow my fear instead of puking it up. I can do this. I know I can. I know I can. I know I can. I simply didn't want to. I'm loyal to a fault and when I invest my heart, it's long term…