Another Beautiful Day In Chaos

sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't…

Satisfaction

Peace

I used to really care what other people’s opinions were. I don’t any more. My mother says the same thing to me, every time I need to check back in with myself. I’m proud of myself after surviving the last year. I’ve learned to love the less spectacular things about myself and the messes I’ve made within the confines of my life. I fell head over heels in love with […]

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Starstruck

I have to admit that I’m a little speechless. My fingers are more content curling up in Mr. Right’s big, beautiful hands than firing off a few hundred words. That sorrow I was drowning in has me laughing at myself now, instead of crying. It’s easy like I’ve never known. No weird hesitation over expressing my feelings, no games and 100% honesty. I can tell him when something bothers me […]

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Hungry

I lost my appetite a year ago. Something about being in love with someone destined to keep on hurting me also stole my love for cooking and eating. Food is love to me and the absence of it in my life left me disinterested in eating more than was necessary to survive. I didn’t want a steak if the guy I wanted wouldn’t cook one for me. I know that […]

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Gratitude

In the worst month of my adult life, I’ve had to take stock of what’s important and face reality about what’s not. I’ve had to stop and count my blessings at a time when they all felt like sand slipping through my fingers. I’ve never been more sad or had more reason to be hopeful about the future. I’ve also never had more stress or reason to worry, in my […]

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Unfriended

I’m not a huge fan of social media to begin with. The endless oversharing, the people who have to detail their day for the disinterested masses and the overwhelming political discord that divides families and friends. I don’t love it because there’s not much TO love. I tolerate it for the baby pictures and mindless crap to read in the middle of the night when I can’t sleep for the […]

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