Another Beautiful Day In Chaos

sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't…

Truth

My Hero, Jess.

Early one morning before I was out of bed, my phone started ringing. I ignored it the first time, then flipped it over and saw it was my beloved friend Jess, who had moved to California. I launched out of bed and ran for the kitchen so I didn’t wake up the whole house when I shouted an exuberant HIIIIII!!!!! As soon as I heard her voice, I knew something […]

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Gratitude

In the worst month of my adult life, I’ve had to take stock of what’s important and face reality about what’s not. I’ve had to stop and count my blessings at a time when they all felt like sand slipping through my fingers. I’ve never been more sad or had more reason to be hopeful about the future. I’ve also never had more stress or reason to worry, in my […]

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Unfriended

I’m not a huge fan of social media to begin with. The endless oversharing, the people who have to detail their day for the disinterested masses and the overwhelming political discord that divides families and friends. I don’t love it because there’s not much TO love. I tolerate it for the baby pictures and mindless crap to read in the middle of the night when I can’t sleep for the […]

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Diamonds

I’m a hopeless romantic. I met a young couple a few years ago when I was serving, that had made their wedding rings out of silver dollars. That’s my idea of a perfect ring. You shouldn’t have to spend a fortune on the ring- it should be an incredible joy to marry the love of your life. The only way I’d do it again was if I felt that strongly. […]

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Moving Forward

I’ve wasted a year of my life pretending to be a sad little puddle. I’m all for optimism, but this is where being stubborn to a fault bites me in the ass. Regardless of the mixed signals he drowns me in, I should have loved myself enough to walk away from the pain of it all… a LONG time ago. The sight of him pains me and touching him is […]

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