Another Beautiful Day In Chaos

sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't…

Victory!

Peace

I used to really care what other people’s opinions were. I don’t any more. My mother says the same thing to me, every time I need to check back in with myself. I’m proud of myself after surviving the last year. I’ve learned to love the less spectacular things about myself and the messes I’ve made within the confines of my life. I fell head over heels in love with […]

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Jesus Almighty Crossfit

Y’all… there aren’t words. My thighs feel like I had a one night stand with Jeffrey Dahmer and he fell asleep after eating a little of each. Every step hurts. Every breath hurts. I liken stairs to natural childbirth. Walking down stairs hurt last week. Upstairs feels like unmedicated surgery this week. I. Am. Crippled. Handstands and pull-ups. Push-ups and squats. It has kicked my ass in every imaginable way. […]

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Stinky

It’s no secret that I’m afflicted by the fine print of this man. In trying to shake it off, I’ve gone to great lengths. I asked him what cologne he wears and bought a bottle for myself. I made the grave error of spraying it on my sheets one night and the rest is sleepless history. Being wrapped up in the scent of him without the beautiful physicality of his […]

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Change

On a rainy day by the sea, my beautiful Anthony was laid to rest. Work, motherhood and heartache kept me from wanting to be there in person. I spoke to his mother in the dark hours of the morning yesterday when she forgot the time difference, wanted to call and tell me how much she wished I were there and to remind me how much he loved me. It’s the […]

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30 Days of Truth, Day 17

Day 17 — A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. Confession: I’ve been reading the same book for over a year. I’m about 12 pages in. It’s not that I don’t love the book, it’s that when push comes to shove…. reading is the first thing I abandon. Not out of desire, but necessity. Words are my weakness, and I don’t put books down. I read them exhaustively […]

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