Regrettably Hopeful

I try really hard to like myself these days. I've spent enough time in the past hating who I was or what I looked like, and what my body had become after an early entry into motherhood with poor elasticity. The world is a dark, hard place. You should always be a gentle place for…

Mr. Holy Grail

When this idea occurred to me, I knew it was the equivalent of trading crack for cocaine. I wasn't going to solve any problems by summoning the devil, but I would certainly curb the habit that's been crippling and holding me hostage for the past year. I decided to bargain my soul for some peace,…

Lifeline

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=boPuA0CbjiY I've been drowning in these miserable cravings for a man I can't have. A man I've had, sort of. A man who loves to dangle himself in front of me, still. When he brought this idea to me, I was trying to set him up with a friend of mine because I've loved him…

Blindsided

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50VWOBi0VFs He knows what cuts me the deepest and grins at my horrified face while the blade sinks into my heart. I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I smile back at him while the pain blinds me.¬†Wanting someone at any cost, teaches you what your threshold for pain really is. Mine is masochistic…

Mr. Spoiled

There's a little magic in dating the boys you'd never consider. I'm not sure why that is, it just IS. I lose that nervous chaos that threatens to drown me when I'm not excited to go on a date. I'm able to just be myself and experience it for what it is.... Torture. Internet dating…